Life has been very hectic as of late. I have gained a few new clients, working on some rather large projects, and my personal life has been in super overdrive. By super overdrive I mean trying to manage buying a house, working two full-time jobs, and getting married at the end of this month.

I’ve always been telling myself that after college things would get back to normal, and that I’d be able to do those things I love doing. It’s been several months, one knee surgery, lots of little things coming up, and I’ve still not found the time to relax to do the little things. I bought the xbox 360 years ago and I’ve still not beaten Halo 3 the sole reason I bought the xbox, and there among the dust sits many other terrific games untouched. I haven’t finished Half-life 2 the game I waited months, nearly a year, just to even smell the CD box cover. I haven’t beaten it.

I have been a sampler of life for years, never digesting anything, but merely nibbling off pieces here and there just for taste. I have sunk my teeth into a new house, new life, new jobs, and I’m finding that because of the chaos i have lost clairty. I guess that comes with getting two degrees, moving to senior positions in less than 2 years out of school, and getting to the point of getting married has left my life erratic. So erratic that I’ve lost the clarity of thought because the moment I have time to think I have to start working on something else equally important for a client or friend.

So I’ve decided that everyday I’m going to work on myself. I’m going to concentrate more on concentrating on topics or subjects longer than has been the trend. I still must keep with the obligation to clients over gaming for instance, but the matter at hand is working on clarity of thought. Life is far too short and too complex to spend my days wondering where time has gone or overlooking the ability to take those extra moments just because they’re there. I will be working on clarity, something we all need, but seldom do we seek it.